life's twists......

2011-01-22T06:04:00.000-08:00

Ok guys,I'd like to make this very clear.

I'm not barney,nor do I have any utmost desire to live the extremely shallow and empty life he does.
I'm not shallow,nor do I view girls as objects.Sometimes you guys might feel offended when I might view girls as objects,or when I'm like saying I talk to this girl or another.I'm NOT trying to show off.I just relapse into talking about it because,as we all know,I'm not like you guys.I'm not muscular,or poetic,or able to dance till girls beg you to take them,or write entertaining,amazing blogposts.I can't connect with people from every single clique,or social class or whatever. I'm just ME.

I'm not an expert or anything,i just do what everybody does.When I occasionally view girls as objects,its probably because I was really hurt by one,and I can't really bring myself to believe in love,or affection,or whatever.

I know you guys might not feel that I tell you everything,but that's because..I don't want you to lose you guys.I'm afraid opening up the darkest pits of my soul and baring it for all to see is just too much.I'd rather have every second I spend with you guys a fun,joyous happy occasion,then have times where we argue,or fight,or you get scared or repulsed by things I might think off.In all honesty,I'm not a good person.I've dreamed of doing things that border on psychotic,things that are really well..evil.

Look,dude,you were like the first friend,the first person to ever care about me.I'm immensely grateful for that.In my life,you live on a pedestal so high,only my parents are higher than you sometimes.To think that the playacting has come to the point where it irritates you,proves that its time to stop.I guess I may not have talked about all that.I may not be a marshall,or a ted.But I NEVER WANT TO BE BARNEY.And only I know how alone he must feel.

2010-12-19T05:52:00.000-08:00

நட்பின் ஒளி,
கோபத்தின் நிழல்,
பிரிந்துபோனதன் வலி,
தனிமையில் கதறும் குரல்,
இதுதானா ஏன் கதி?

இல்லை வாழ்கையின் மாயமா?
உன் நட்பு
என் வாழ்கையில் தேவையான இனிப்பு
திரும்பி வருவாயா?
சோகத்தில் துடிக்கும் ஆண்
உன்முன் கெஞ்சுகிறேன் நான்
மன்னிப்பாயா?

2010-07-18T08:19:00.001-07:00

Hi.
After a LOOOONG abscence,I'm back(I guess).Well,the O levels are near.As near as..Holland was to the World cup?Or smth.Well,the main reason I came here was to well,say something that's been on my mind for the past couple of days,something I just can't tell anybody.And I need to say it:Somewhere,somehow.So here it is.

It's like square one,
Rediscovering you once again,
But now somehow,
There's no pain,
nothing to gain.

I've come to accept,
that our lives are entwined,
as much as light and dark;
As much as good and evil.

I will never be complete without you,
For in me lives a part of you,
And in you lives a part of me.
And right then,
At that instant,
I knew,
That if I were to ever love,
It would only be you.

I've never felt this way to other girls before.
I can't.
I can't bring out that feeling.
I can't love anyone else.
I will forever wait.
I may get hurt all over again,
But every step is worth it,
For every step I walk,
You're there by my side.

With You by my side,
I feel like Superman,
Like I can take on the world myself,
And for you,
I'll be Permanently Patient.

2010-04-08T06:45:00.000-07:00

2010-03-09T06:14:00.000-08:00

Sian.
I know there's something wrong.
But I'm not bothered already.
As the circle breaks,
and I'm left standing,
I know,
that I never truly belonged.
But I learnt life.
I learnt things that I never would have.
But hopefully,
It comes to an end,
and we can start over again.

2010-02-12T21:32:00.000-08:00

It has come full circle.
All the time,
I can never escape who I am,
No matter what,
No matter how hard I try,
I'll always be at the bottom of the food chain.
But strangely,
I'm happier.
Life is'nt about popularity,
Or flirting,
Or toying around.
It does not matter how many friends you have,
But how many truly are your friends,
and it is with these friends,
that you should shape your destiny,
venturing into the unknown.

2009-12-31T03:06:00.000-08:00

HI.Only 4hrs 54 mins left till O level year.Let's break it down:
-School
-Friends
1st:School.Okay,I basically screwed this year.Big time.Through all the pepsi-drinking and stoning into space,I kinda zonked out during almost every lesson(damn i'm dying for a pepsi).This,I think ,was kinda of a attitude moving foward from last year. So,It's now time to do it.Studying.After 3 years of not doing it.hmm...3/3?If you really wanna know what I think,I don't fit in.Not truly.I sort of drift here and there.Hopefully i can stay rooted somewhere.But apart from that,I sincere ly wanna thank the whole of 3/3 for setting up and attending the Birthday Buffet.THANKS!No oe has ever done that for me before.

2nd:Friends.This year,I grew closer with some(Tabitha)and drifted apart with some(..)Well,No one is perfect.And No one gets what they always want I guess..Well,this year,I have to groups of people to thank especially.1st:Ryofred and Stephanie.I don't know how to say this properly,but the 2 of you are like the older siblings I never had.I REALLY enjoyed all the time we spent together,good and bad.The two of you sorta make me HARRY POTTER.HAHA.Seriously,You guys are like..thepeople i really enjoy hanging out with.Next,The next group:MY BROTHERS FROM OTHER MOTHERS!!Nic,XM and Jerome!ROCK ON DUDES!All the times we hung out together and our star wars geekiness.IT ALL ROCKS.(P.S.NEXT YEAR:IRON MAN 2!)I'd also like to thank the following (new )groups of people who made my "year":
-Jaini
I know that I always call you clone of my cousin or smth,but I think you're a seriously cool dudette with awesome music tastes and I dig hanging out with you.
-Pei Jun and Huiling
You guys are sorta the people I talk to.The emotional,fun people.HAHA.THANKS!
-Wei Long
HAHA.OOOH YEAAA.You are the ultimate funseeker.And that is COOL.Really like hangin out with you dude!
-Fadzly
After sitting together for a year bro,I feel like WE'RE CLOSE MAN.I mean,we always talk about .... and all right?So next year,Sit with me can?: )

OKAY.RESOLUTION TIME:
-STUDY
-STILL HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS
-FOCUSSSSS
-DO WELL IN Os
That"s about it.Short and Sweet.HAHAHA
BYe!
[][\/][-]R(working on the r)

2009-12-31T03:00:00.000-08:00

wazzup
is this working?

2009-12-31T02:58:00.001-08:00

THIS IS A SPACE

2009-12-31T02:26:00.000-08:00

2009-12-11T21:39:00.000-08:00

Hello.
It's the time again when the year is coming to an end,so to beat the crowd when everyone will start posting their resolutions,regrets and whatnot,I'll post first.
hmm...this year I:
-learnt what heartbreak was firsthand
-learnt that you should never judge things just based on your assumptions
-learnt that sometimes,you sacrifice your own happiness to fulfill someone else's
-have enjoyed myself
-Made new friends
-broke many stereotypes I had about people
-realised that there are true friends,and people like me out there
-that I should study more?lol

I think its just like that.
I'm always in the same situation.
Always the friend,never anything else.
The time for fun is over.
Time to do what I've been ignoring for 3 years.
Time to finally do the hard stuff.
Time to finally admit I was wrong.
hahas.
adios,
[][\/]4R
p.s. damian,ya lar,my blog is wierd.

Do You Remember

2009-11-28T19:32:00.000-08:00

Hey! Jay Sean
Yeah! Sean Paul
Lil Jon!
This one right here is for all the ladies
Ladies who want to take it back
(i don't know what Sean Paul said)
Holler at them Jay

I've been thinking about you
And how we used to be then
Back when we didn't have to live we could start again

There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories

Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back

(Yo Jay Sing for these ladies!)

So long since you've been missing
It's good to see you again
How you how you doing
And how about we don't let this happen again

There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Jay Sean Do You Remember
Just you and me tonight
Jay Sean Do You Remember lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/jay-sean-do-you-remember-lyrics.html
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories

Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)

Yo ay girl yo bring it back to the time when you and me had just begun
When I was still your number one
Well it might seem far-fetched baby girl but it can't be done
I've got this feeling fire blazing and it's hot just like the sun
Know you feel it too my girl just freeze up may the good vibes run ...
Girl take a sip of the champange take a lil trip down my lane my girl
While you noe every night you'll feel alright look I tell you dis girl atta My world
Dont change imma na Rearange Ay girl imma tell you straight dis atta my world
How many years do you want come kiss dis I know you miss this
That's what I heard that's what I heard that's what I heard word girl
(written by ear as heard by Mj22)

There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories

Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back (Let's bring it back)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back)
Let's bring it back (Let's bring it back)
Let's bring it back (Oh)
Let's bring it back

This is a BRILLIANT song.Go Listen.

Getting Rid Of You Was The Next Best Thing That I ever Did.
When the friends were few,
You were the best
As the years went on,
the sincerity became lesser,
quarrels became more frequent,
Few people know what happened,
That hot day in March,
The void,
The hurricane,
I may not be the most articulate,
But I know when things are wrong,
I should never have let myself fall that far.

This is something,
Long delayed,
But remember this,
I still remember,
D you Remember?

2009-11-03T23:39:00.000-08:00

You know what?Screw this.I'm am not gonna go grovelling to anyone anymore.Almost all of womankind is EVIL.(Yes,I'm talking to you,Praveena).I see the same game being played.It sickens me.But you know what?I'm not going to be bothered.I'm not even going to save that guy.Let him,and finally the world,understand just what you really are.

2009-11-03T06:10:00.000-08:00

Wish we could be just that,
with no tension,
boiling in vats,
but when will the fire extinguish?

Now it's just too late

2009-10-31T22:49:00.000-07:00

Nobody blames you.
My bad,
Your bad,
Nobody's bad.
Its just the way things are.
Can we mend this?

2009-10-30T18:08:00.000-07:00

I’m sorry.

My life.

Illuminated by the world.

Scrutinising.

I have no privacy.

Lonely.

I sought sanctuary

And found you.

A friend.

For awhile

I found joy

Free and happy.

But then came the world

Along with a magnifying glass.

Scrutinising.

And a single narrow beam

Burning you.

There were others

Before you.

Burned to a withered husk

Leaving me alone.

In the harsh glare

It’s okay.

I’m used to it

But you aren’t.

I’m sorry.

p.s.Do you hear me ?
I’m talking to you .

2009-10-18T08:10:00.000-07:00

Hello.I finally realized how to upload.Been damn depressed lately because i'm not sure about my
SA2.Mr Leow was like saying how i failed chem so I'm pretty scared that I might have to take comb.sciences.My mom does'nt seem to care anymore though.I keep getting this gnawing feeling in my stomach which is usually a common symptom tonervousness and depression.I don't even know how I'm going to be promoted.tts all

Bye.
#mar.

2009-10-10T08:19:00.000-07:00

Hello.

I have to get this off me.

I AM A TOTAL JERK.

It's true.

And now the world knows.

()mar

2009-09-06T09:35:00.000-07:00

I finally realized that my parents trust me loads.So,after this,im switching of this thing that has me hooked like 48 hours a day.Today was kinda uneventful.Last SCP class.Very sad.As expected,the usual suaning.But I'm really gonna miss them all.Amanda,Adeline,Ben,Darren,Dip,Milton,Nigel,Victoria,Celestine and Evangeline.I guess I learnt that not every girl feels kinda wierd talking to an Indian boy.And I made some great friends!like Darren and Victoria.Never really knew how much they appreciated me till today...esp.Celestine and Amanda.Guess my sundays are now finally empty....

now,a special thing:

I trusted you.
Thought you were a friend
but you're just a fiend

Such a hypocrite,
my kryptonite,
it was your plan all along,
why so green with envy?

Playing that card,
secretly cheating,
you made it,a falling pebble,
into an avalanche,
and I'll never forgive you for that,
LIAR

yours angrily,
-_-mar

2009-09-02T07:11:00.000-07:00

Hello
Its be eons since I last posted.Yes,I know its been long.Sorry.Thank you everyone for that absolutely FANTASTIC Birthday Bash!!!(:Now,onto more recent stuff.CA2 was screwed.Even with 2 A1s,I still end up with a L1R5 of 26.Quite bad,as its only a slight improvement,2)Its a CA2 and 3)I failed 4 this time.Really unhappy about it.this might explain mood swings that I have been having.Sigh.Must do a Damian and improve tremendously.OK.so people have said that my blog is boring with no PICTURES.Time for some.OK,I don't know how.so I'll save it till next.BTW,I've reverted to my old blog skin because its the best.a nice song for all of you(no,Xiu Ming,its not GAY)

Oh, the power to be strong
And the wisdom to be wise
All these things will
Come to you in time
On this journey that you're making
There'll be answers that you'll seek
And its you who'll climb the mountain
Its you who'll reach the peak

Son of man, look to the sky
Lift your spirit, set it free
Some day you'll walk tall with pride
Son of man, a man in time you'll be

Though there's no one there to guide you
No one to take your hand
But with faith and understanding
You will journey from boy to man

Son of man, look to the sky
Lift your spirit, set it free
Some day you'll walk tall with pride
Son of man, a man in time you'll be

In learning you will teach
And in teaching you will learn
You'll find your place beside the
Ones you love
Oh, and all the things you dreamed of
The visions that you saw
Well, the time is drawing near now
Its yours to claim in all

Son of man, look to the sky
Lift your spirit, set it free
Some day you'll walk tall with pride
Son of man, a man in time you'll be

Son of man,
Son of man a man for all to see

Son Of Man-Phil Collins

nice song.A change from the usual.And with a message too.
bye!
**mar

2009-06-20T08:29:00.000-07:00

well,hello again.

Its seems just minutes ago that I entered Anderson,yet 2 and a half years have passed.As I lookback at the path I took,I see the path of a person who is the polar opposite of the boy I was in primary school.I see myself included and welcomed in many diverse circles,as com pared to the small group of friends I had.Everywhere I go,I see not enemies and vengeful looks,but rather smiling faces and friends.On the other hand,I see red marks on my papers,instead of the 'WELL DONE !"stickers and 90s.I see myself enjoying life,rather than whittling my time away over countless assesment books.Yes,i used to wonder why people would call me nerd,why they would rather spend their time in void decks,roaming rather then building their futures.It was only after coming to secondary school did I learn that there is more to life that the academic aspect,that there is such a thing as friendship,such close friendship that sometimes,the affection one feels can often be mistaken for love of another kind.I learnt what true love,or something close to it,feels like...I've made many dear friends,but at times,it is the most distant of them that we turn to.I've learnt the practical meaning of Friendship...and so,as I look onward,towards the future,I know that my friends will always be there...remember..the past is not equal to the future..and so,i would like to dedicate this song,one which people might call "gay",but a very beautiful song indeed...

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I

thank you. Omar

2009-05-17T02:08:00.004-07:00

wazzup...

now,the brats are out and my parents are sleeping.

wow

what to do?

kk..i'll make this interesting.exams:
ss(ok)
Eng(every1 gonna own me this term!)
Geog(cn pass lah,i guess)
Lit(no comment)
E maths(die)
Physics(slightly easier as compared to last term)
A-math(passing would be a miracle)
Tamil(hopefully...)
Chemistry(screwed)
surprisingly,i feel indifferent and I keep having nightmares about being retained(nono...studystudy!)As usual,all geniuses will gt great results...i must commend Ivan...he put in alot of effort this term..Jiayou!and good luck 2 every1 else 4 results!(shut up Jerome)
onto greater things

Wolverine was nice,but to quote a friend:"the special effects look like a singapore secondary school did them".Truly,the patching was obvious.And for those who want to knw the cliffhangers:

After the final credits:

Logan is at a bar, drinking, in Japan. The bar lady asks if he’s drinking to forget, and he says he is drinking to remember.

After the final credits #2: (Thanks Josh):

Out of the rubble of the tower, Deadpool's blade begins to retract back into his arm. His hand starts reaching through the rubble until it grabs his head. His eyes open and he whispers "shhh".

Creepy huh?Taken was nice,btw,but lots of voilence i guess.been improving my international ties over the weekend and I've realised that

Distance can truly MAKE a relationship.

that's all for now(im gonna try change blogskin)bye!

<>mar

2009-05-09T01:02:00.000-07:00

1-1ello.
two important stuff"

1.my dad just pulled the plug on my fast coms internet till after the exams so no playing and stuff

2ive discovered that if i made a program where all the photos u take can be stored and accessed by multiple personas for viewing and posting pleasures,I WOULD BE A BILLIONARE.SO IM GONNA START TRYING.ihave 2 do this in secret by the way coz my dad thinks i play com all day long and pulled my internet away.btw,if u found my blog,good 4 u.anway...see u soon....plus my exams are really screwed and happy bday kt.p.s.i need more hits man...my blog is totally dead.WORKING ON IT.

2009-04-26T00:39:00.001-07:00

watching a RETARDED show with a certain RETARDED hero whom a certain RETARD I know likes.
Sch nowdays is really boring.trying to catch up,but it's one **** of a journey,ignoring the seductive woman temptation.I just realised that its been my real post in a LONG,LONG time.As always,work numbs many things.I've decided to ask if I can start a School newspaper...Leaving a legacy(copied from NPCC)well,i'm really bored.YOu guys just want some juicy stuff right?i guess I don't really feel anything about the posting,but I'm really glad people got what they deserved,but sad that a certain great,TALENTED,FULLY CAPABLE(CERTAINLY IN SIZE) FRIEND OF MINE DID NOT GET EXACTLY WHAT HE DESERVED.Now I'll just end with a certain poem i pick from a universe that runs parallel to a certain book with coloured squares infront...

The feeling that runs through,
my entire being,
is like a wave,
it fades awhile,
but then,
stronger than ever,
it comes

Everything you do,
seemingly random,
splits and mends,
old wounds,
the way you do,
those things.....

How do I ever heal myself?

confused

2009-04-04T07:21:00.000-07:00

Many a night,
I spent sleepless,
staring at the ceiling,
wondering

Sometimes i can't feel,
But I don't think it will heal.
So I try my best each day,
surrounded,shrouded,
trying to drown it out

But it haunts me,
constantly,surrounding
enveloping,killing,
Will it ever come back?
the thing that beats?
That I cannot feel?

Like a broken circuit.
As it completes a round,
A new wave of pain,
Washes over me,
Will it heal?

I try desperately,
Push it down,
Everyday I see,
pass through,
By me,

I finally realized,
It may never heal,
So what do I do?

Will I be healed?
Or will I forever be crippled?
That is the Question...

2009-02-15T00:47:00.000-08:00

Call me old-fashioned,but I love this song....really conveys my thoughts in more ways than one to many people....stay strong.....We're always there for you.....
Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone says
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me,
when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone Move along,
move along just to make it through
Move along Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me,
when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone Move along,
move along just to make it through Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong
we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong,
we move along Along, along, along
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
When all you got to keep is strong Move along,
move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
(Move along) (Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong We move along

If you're wondering,this song is "Move Along" by The All-American Rejects...Ask me if you want the song...

that's all.
@)>-%----
(p.s.guess what this is)
::mar

2009-02-01T06:09:00.000-08:00

Hello ppl!

I was just reading Rui Ting's Blog and I'd like to borrow some of the points there.

1)--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes

2)--Guys don't really have final decisions.

3)--Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

4)--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

5)--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

6)--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

7)--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

8)--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

9)--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

10)--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

That's all!bb
()mar

2009-01-23T06:14:00.000-08:00

hello.since i am essentialy good-for-nothing-apart-for-my-gift-of-the-gab-and-my-low-EQ-and-lousy-inference-skills,i shall put lyrics from a song which reflects my mood and someone else who JUMPS FROM ONE PERON TO THE OTHER LIKE A SKIPPING STONE.
You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter
But you feel so far away
And I can't lie
But everytime I leave my heart turns grey
And I, I wanna come back home to see your face
And I...

Cause I just can't take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait, I can wait forever
When you come my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop beating
I can wait, I can wait forever...

You look so beautiful today
It's like everytime I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, man, I wish that I could stay
And I can't lie, but everytime I leave my heart turns grey
And I, I wanna come back home to see your face
And I...

Cause I just can't take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait, I can wait.. I can wait forever
When you come my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
I can wait, I can wait.. I can wait forever...
I know it feels like forever
I guess that just a price I've gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch makes it better
'Til that day there's nothing else I can do
And I just can take it (Just can't take it)
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait, I can wait.. I can wait forever
When you come my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
I can wait, I can wait.. I can wait forever...
I can wait forever I can wait forever I can wait forever
I can wait forever I can wait forever...

tts all.....i knw no1 cms here any way....

once again...

2009-01-02T05:39:00.000-08:00

as u can see...my blog is not ur typicalo blog...but i'll do something typical...HAPPY NEW YEAR!may your resolutions all come true!In the past year,i finally came out of the drunken haze that was my ignorance,cold heartedness,and pathetic life.I've come to regret how i treated people,how i never cared to repay their kindness and how callous i was.anyway,im kinda bored,so here's a nice song:

Don’t hang up
Can we talk
So confused
It’s like I'm lost
What went wrong
What made you go
Don’t pretend you don’t know
This is me
I'm unchangeable

When did we
Fall apart
Or did you lie
From the start
When you said
It's only you
I was blind
Such a fool
Thinking we
We're unbreakable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
was it something that I did
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

I've been told
Whats done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep inside
I know that’s true
I'm stuck in time
I'm stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Wake up, wake up, wake up
Cuz I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now

Because we’re much better
All together
Can’t let go

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Made me unbeatiful

this is unbeautiful by lesley roy.that's all for now....bye...

2008-11-15T02:00:00.000-08:00

The Holidays Are Boring.So says everyone.But me?Not neccessarily.Holidays can be spent doing thinggs you always wanted to do but never had time for.For me,it's reading the entire Legacy Of The Force series.I'm down to 1 from 9.and playing dota.Apparently,I have an affinity for the Leviathan.WHY?who knows?Besides,I AM BORED. :)(this smilely face shows that).Moving on...What is the big deal about a class spliting.I don't mean to insult anyone,but we're still in the same school,every1's alive.To me,you should'nt think of this as the end,but rather a new dwn of beginnings.reasonably,we only talk during recess,before and after school.We can still do that.No one constantly talks to every1 else all the time(apart from me).So why cry.I really don't see the reason...Maybe i'm devoid of emotion....Anyway,this is one of my favorite scenes...You may not like it..but just watch it...

2008-10-21T04:58:00.000-07:00

Hello....(as you can see I'm nt myself)....Slacking during SA2 was the worst thing I've ever done in my life(apart from TRYING to play dota with Jerome around)...My results are screwed....Don't wanna talk abt them...PDS is screwed...NCC is screwed....I'm currently residing at the lowest pinnacle of my morale....sianz....(btw DANIELLE I may be emo,but I definitely have guts unlike you...congratz to Depak,Jerome(who takes every oppurtunity to tell tt he's 2nd in cohort),Ryan etc.If u did badly,then you know you learnt a lesson:try harder(lyk wat they thought in leadership course)BTW,I relink coz my FAMILY knw my blog address liao(thx kt)...

yours emoingly,
#mar

2008-10-10T09:55:00.000-07:00

Finally,You understand.
I knew I could never be there
I knew I'd always break a closely tied bond
I knew I'd always surpress you in a jail
I knew I'd break even the rope in the air

I knew I'd drag you down into the Abyss that was me.

S I tried.Very hard. To push You away.
Coz' I knew it could never happen,and that at this time,
I'd bring only pain to you.

But once I won,
I found something gone
A abyss within me,
coz you were gone.

By then it was too late,
I knew you were too far,
I did'nt want to hurt you
anymore.
I want to be your half,
But you're too far gone
I pray that you
will come back,
when the time is right.
Till then,Goodbye.

2008-09-10T07:46:00.000-07:00

Hello ppl!Long time no see,u thought I mati!lol......Since so many ppl post abt exams and stuff....I'M GONNA POST THROUGH THE EXAM PERIOD TO LET U ALL HV SM FUN THROUGH THE STRESS!So first,belated bdays to:
XUI MING!(nigga hug!)
Singapore(i guess)
ME!
and many others.....
Next:the thx's...
Nichloas!(the bk rocked!Yes we can stay BFF)
Kuan Ting(Youre a great fren!u rock!(oso coz u let me copy hw)
Ryan and Depak(black & white!thx 4 e bottle!Im having so much fun wif it(hehe))
Aqilah(The chocolates were really gd)
Praveena(4 the wierd card!)
Jerome and Xui Ming(4 being such gd frens!)
and many others....(sry if I did'nt mention u!)
Next:EXAMS!!!!!my SUPER-TYCHO marks:
ENG:72(A2)
Maths:39(F9)(it sux!my pass!)
Tamil:71(A2(hehe)
SCI:83!(A1)(thx,kt!)
GEOG:85(A1)
His:65(B3)
Lit:80(A1)
D&T:75(A1)
ART:65(B3)

Well,tts all!see u soon!
()mar

2008-06-08T06:44:00.000-07:00

Hope this works...really nice vid....As u all might know,I'm a STAR WARS FANATIC!!!!(now don't ask me why my blogskin's batman)This vid is a compilation of all the lightsaber duels in all 6 EPISODES!!!It's quite long,but pls watch it.Now tt I knw how to post vids,expect lots more!!!!Bintan was magnificent!!Sharing a hut(on stilts!)with KT and Nic was really fun!All the activities and scenery was Astounding!!!Every1 loved all the activities,from the flying fox to the trekking!With an almost vertical ascent and rain just hours before,slipping and sliding was REALLY common...I did'nt have a camera to capture those breathtaking nature shots,(u can see the by the dozen in the sky!),but our award-winning photographer Nicholas took lots!(see them at his blog!I can't post them!).That's all 4 nw FOLKS!see you soon!GTG!!!

yours truly,
#mar

love

2008-04-23T23:30:00.000-07:00

Recently,every1's been getting attached.u know,the ---matter,then there's the --- matter.I mean,y?life might be abt finding your soulmate,but sometimes it gets annoying,u knw.Like for example,treating ur friends differently,just 2 look good in front of ur loved 1s. Lyk destroying
homework(hint,hint)jus becoz someone makes a comment abt some1 u lyk,or constantly bullying others jus 2 look stronger or cooler.Also,u don't jus act big jus coz maybe ur boyfriend's really strong.A real friend treats a friend the same way always,no matter what.I mean,people help others sometimes,u know,in finding what they really want.im not saying everyone's innocent,but think abt it.What if the tables were reversed?

?mar

2008-04-21T02:16:00.000-07:00

LOL!!!Yo!!!been a long time since I posted.what, a month!?Its been that long!?Okay so news update.Exams are round the corner,Ive gt homework and im blogging.Had speech day performance(finally!I thought the rehearsals would never end.mon,wed,fri!)We all (me,depak,kt,nichloas,jerome,ryan and damien)practised really hard.In the end,it all paid off!the performance was really good(specs,u guys did well too!)and even zhi bin was impressed!Our srp got selected!I can't believe it!our's is on "how to harness Crowd Energy"every1's was good too!So sat,went benet's house.was so peaceful!we made generator,then playeddota.speaking of which,i went 2 lan on speech Day!went with deepak,jerome,kt,gladwin,xuan pu,calvin and aruna.Aruna,Calvin and Xuan pu owned us lyk siao!!!!!tts all folks!1

yours noobly

&mar!!!!

Im back!!!!

2008-03-13T07:42:00.000-07:00

Yes ppl,and you better believe it!!!!!!!!!Omar's back and better than ever!I finally decided to "awaken" my blog from its deep slumber when ppl started to think tt the 2/3 omar was me!!!!!I mean,come on
1.I never play with the rubik's cube,much less the 2 by 2 one!
2.I'm a comic freak,so my blogskins are always dc or marvel heroes!!
3.I always link my friends(see 4 urself :) )

Well,anyway,im turning in.watch out for the latest happenings right here!!!!!BYE!!!

yours truly Re-Inspired,
*mar

2007-11-10T17:54:00.000-08:00

YOYOYO!!!Long time no see!The HOLS rock and bore at the same time.It's like being in retirement!!It's really sian...Nothing much was what i've been doing,lyk watching tv,play com watch "the game plan" with nichloas and justin on wed(was really funny(:).Then heaven on Earth came!!!I bought a ZEN stone!!!!looks really cool coz it's black in colour.1GB!!!the only thing is tt there's no screen,but who needs 1?!BTW,Happy Deepavali to all HINDUS!!!Hope u get lots of money...1 give me some(jkjk) (:tt's all for lyk,freaking long.BB!!!!

Proud ZEN stone owner,
omar!!

sry!!!!!!!

2007-10-19T19:00:00.001-07:00

Hi guyz!sry,been REALLY busy.Finally,I can experience the joy of eating again!yup,the fasting month is over and the money frm Hari Raya is flooding in!Getting my EOY results on mon!really nervous coz I like screwed some 360 degrees round!Maths is going 2 be a total failure I bet.Horefully I also Manage 2 pass everything else.This brings me 2 another interesting and dumb fact:my sch gives the answers before the paper!I wonder iif its 2 either make sure we forget the answers or so tt they can save time,only God knows.the poat-exam activities really were boring.However,soon there's going 2 be a rather interesting event,namely be yourself day and Arts Fest !Im gonna be ready 4 it!see you!!bb!!

up date!!!

2007-09-30T04:33:00.000-07:00

hi!!!
IM SRY tt I havent been blogging,but with EIYs already round the corner,there's not much time.Id like to bring in another issue tt ppl have,in light with the SUNDAY TIMES.I totally agree with some ppl tt the seats placed at MRTs,also known as butt rests,are USELESS.Theyre so high its like half someone's height.What abt parents with whining kids ?Its impossible to place them there.Y not just make more,comfortable,slabs which ppl sit on?They definitely work better!!!Think abt it!!!?

0mar

WAZZUP YO!!

2007-09-16T03:44:00.000-07:00

Hi,havent been posting.SRY abt that.Life's been undergoing major changes,if u know wat I mean.It's the fasting month,also known as Ramadan.Not eating or drinking from sunrise to sunset may seem impossible but believe me,it isnt.I even went with nicholas(forgive me if the spelling is wrong) and Justin to mac.I didnt feel hungry,just thirsty.The EOY exams are looming ahead ,just 12 days away!the malay pupils have had their exams and I hope they do well,for their own sake.NCC on fri rocked.Due 2 the fact that I was fasting,none of the specialists were allowed 2 pump me.Slacking was fun,but I felt guilty and sorta wierd.I nvr wanna slack again!!!p.s.Imran and shazwan(again pls forgive me if the spelling is wrong) were amazing!!they could even do PDS while fasting!!!Well,Im going 2 break fast!!bb!!:]

Life rocking....

2007-09-05T06:58:00.000-07:00

Well,time passes like winds blowing across the pains...grass sway to the music.... etc.Its seems like eternity since I last blogged.1at,Id like to wish all teacher's HAAPPY TEACher's day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I would like 2say sry 2 all teacher's who have suffered under my wrath!!Seriously,im really sry 2 ms wang,mr tan,mr loweand other victims of lesser crimes.holidays r dumb.3 weeks worth of HW for 1 wk?????possible???u tell me.whole wk still in sch.tmr I've gt NCC caMp.sien..not even overnight.=(Only done Eng so far.Yesterdays tl camp was fun.my grp gt 3rd.but u kn wat matters?we all had fun.WRONG!!!tt wats u all would hv thought I would say!!!I spread prav's secret 2 every1 !!!!P.S.Vicki,if u read this,no 1 blamed u.and we all had fun.pathetic.well tts all 4 2dae.@#@$#%#@%$#$ BIG day tmr!!

0MaR
touturing teachs.......

wazzup!!!

2007-08-24T18:48:00.000-07:00

Sry 4 not posting.YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!my group gt the highest 4 lit!!but I got the lowest(sobs),55.Still quite good!!!kt and hao yu gt 56,and chee Ian gt the highest in class,58/60!!!walow!I was the one who shaped the individual characters!but nvm!!Im finally going 2 get an a1 i hope!!ncc was especially like hell,but we gt through!!bcoz of me,we all gt pumped and were made 2 do henta kaki.REALLY SRY!!!!!!!bb,gtg!!!
p.s.dont go gallavanting.the exams are near!!

time's up!!

2007-08-17T07:38:00.000-07:00

well'its 11pm.no sch 4 e next 2 days!!went 4 ncc.......sien.I gt distinction 4 my UNSW eng!!finally,something cheerful!my lit exam was okay..really enjoyed it!Mrs kamal said tt it was e first time she had seen ppl enjoy their job!:}mY SCI MIGHT HAVE BEEN SCREWED!!i hope I do well..happy holidays bb!gtg!!
@mAr

Arghhh!!!!(2)

2007-08-15T06:57:00.000-07:00

2dae was even worse than yesterday!!!i failed my math test.Dont wanna talk abt it.......Den went 4 1st PDS training.OkAy!we did lots of push ups,failed attempts at chin ups apart from Jerome and a few others.after tt, Learnt a new PdS drill:diagonal slope arm!!!cool rite!but extremely tiring 2 learn.Staff welson kept telling me,"its 4 ur future!!!"but somehow,iI managed to find e strenght 2make it look pro!oh yeah!!!den we had dis race b4 tt. imran,zhi xiang and ryan and me won e part a's.we later lost 2 e specs by only a hair!!!!so close!! well, bb,gtg!!!:}

ahhh!!!

2007-08-14T05:18:00.000-07:00

2dae was really BAAD!!!1st,I woke up late.then,I 4GOT 2 BRING MY MTHS WS!!!.soon after,I failed mygeog!!!well,I guess tt Ill just have 2 bear it :([so,then did eng project..p.s. (kx and rt went into e boy's toilet!!)it was sick...luckily,no 1 was inside.I almost forgot.thx hy andkt 4 teaching me how 2 change blogskin and all!!!Went hm with HaoYu.......

2007-08-13T05:11:00.000-07:00

i cant get a Cbox!help!!!!!!!:}

NDP!!!!(and same old bo0ring life)

2007-08-11T23:18:00.000-07:00

HaPPy ndp!!!hopefully every1 liked it.e navy was really c0ol!!!tmr:back 2 sch...gt tl test..compo.Not feeling well 2dae.but hopefully can come 2 sch :)))))Hope kt doesnt
scream at me,Rt try 2 kill me,Hafiz play pranks etc.But Ive gt 2 not be acting dumb 2.gotta try my best 2 not act DUMB!!,BE AN ANNOYANCE ETC..Saw alethia 2dae at mac..was surprised at wat she was doing incck.as usual,church.bb,gtg:}}}}}
omar

hi

2007-08-10T19:32:00.000-07:00

hi.pls tell me how 2 improve........